~PAIN!.......t Moment~

Last Saturday i tried PAINTBALL not as pain as i expected but still the parts that got hit turn bruised *ouch* Spending time with all these Retards really makes me wanna go back High School...

~Retards invaded Paintball Valley~

~Stupid moment~

There are moments that you felt stupid, is it the moment that you did a mistake? or is it the moment when you don't understand something? Well, i felt stupid for all that moments too but what makes me felt more stupid is when i realized my friends lied to me, i felt really stupid that i actually trusted them & believed what they said but there isn't any right for me to be angry about it... because i was the one that chose to trust them and i know that i'm nothing better than them, for i did all these lies too.. all i could do is feel disappointed...

What a Day.... (Repost)

Walking along the LDP

TCM

1U

Last Monday,  it was a day my head was filled with wrong things, my head was all filled with jealousy, i jealous the life of the others that's much better than mine. I want to have the life of theirs, they just need to ask for what they want, i want to have their aura that can attract others to come to them but.... what's so bad about my life? my life is great too... Why am i thinking of all these nonsenses? Trust in the Lord for He will provides the best for me, this is the life that the Lord has given to a sinner like me, nevertheless, to live in Christ, expect a life that have waves, learn to enjoy when you are suffering, learn to identify what the Lord want to teach us through all these pains. I wish i could understand all these earlier before i had done more wrong doings...

Walking all the way to 1U did gave me a lot of time to think.
Thank God that i met James at 1U, if not i will have to walk back home.

P.S: The previous post was written with a wrong brain, therefore it was corrected...

~a GUILTY day~

*sigh* what have i done yesterday?... why did i keep on doing terrible things to her, first i made her waited for me at the bus station for so long, then i made her worried about her bag at the bowling alley , lastly i fell asleep in Kris' car and leaned on her in front of others... such a terrible friend i am that i continuously do all these terrible things to her, i don't think i should stay any closer to her anymore before things get worse...

~Long Lovely Day~

Yesterday was quite a long day, i was happy that i found a lovely trust worthy friend that i could share my stories with, there were tears and hugs during the moment i shared my story, it's great to have someone to share with, there was a sense of relief. Never the less, her warm lovely shoulder was always ready for her friends but i felt guilty for leaning on her shoulder, making her uncomfortable on the way back. The bus was already so stuffy and yet i'm leaning on her shoulder but she was just so good to me that she didn't want to refuse lending me her shoulder when i asked. Such lovely person she is.

Praise the Lord for friends that was provided, Bless them O Lord, for the lovely hearts they have. AMEN.

~Moment that Never Last~

It has almost been a week me and Charlene taking bus together to campus, it's so lovely to have someone to accompany me throughout all these journey but knowing that this kind of moment never last forever, just hope that there are more times that i can spend with her. At this moment, i know that every side of my heart is telling me something, it is telling me that i'm in love, is one-sided, don't hurt yourself again, don't crush this lovely friendship that you have now, appreciate what you have now, don't ask for more. Truly that i can tell you that i understand my heart well, i don't want my friendship with her to be crushed just like what i did before, thinking back what i had done in the pass, my tears began running down my cheek, i know that it has always been  a wound in  my heart till now.

Praise the Lord for friend that is provided. Amen.

Florence + the Machine - Shake It Out (Lyrics)

Have you let go all your regrets from the past? Are you still being threatened by your past till now? Learn to let them go, for they are just dark past that we had. If we don't move forward from the dark, we will never see the light. Let no devil take opportunity on these regrets to have footholds on us, so shake all these regrets out of us and have Faith in what the Lord had planned for us in the Future.

Let's enjoy Life with No Regrets.