Jealousy....

Life is always chained with sins, among all sins jealousy is the most common sin and yet that because it is so common, that showed you how powerful and deadly this sin is. My life had never leave jealousy, dissatisfaction of my current life always the main cause of jealousy, whether it's in the content of academic, physically, mentally, wealth or maybe relationship with others. When you wish that you are as good as others or even better than them, then you are conducting jealousy. But for relationship, it's kinda complicated (to me), through jealousy i know that i'm in love, through jealousy i know i hadn't give up/let go of this relationship, through jealousy i continue to press a knife deeper and deeper into my heart while putting a mask of a jester, only until the day i get numb of this pain, then i will be able to move on, but when the day comes, the wound that place on my heart will be so deep, deep enough to place a scar on it. I wonder if there is a way to pull the knife out before i were to press it deeper and deeper....

Friends??? who??

Who could probably be there for me when i needed someone, when i'm shedding tears, who? who is there? i don't know i can't tell, for a moment when i'm friendly and joy, people come around me, i thought i have a lot of friends, when i'm depress and being quiet, you all leave me all alone, seeing you all enjoying yourself, why? why do i even bother to care about all this, isn't things just started with me alone, why do i bother to make friends??? why do i seems to be invincible when i'm quiet, does anyone think of me?? or am i contagious?? you alll afraid of being infected by loneliness?? Why???? why do i even know them at the first place, if i know joy is the priority, why???????? who??? Who??? .......who is free To hear me out??? who... please don't tell me you care when you don't really care....

I'm annoying right?? have you been annoyed by me???

Time....

Time passed really fast, everyday was like restless, to find a time to sit beside the lake alone just like last time is really hard but i'm doing it now anyway, i sitll remember i had made promise to myself that i shall finish my work on time during sem 2 but things just screwed up, i fell for temptation, i lost my self-control, i tried to stop myself from doing worthless things but it was never a success, sometimes i just wish that someone will be there to listen to me, keep an eye on me and walk through this path with me, but i can never find anyone that wiling to spend this lots of time with me. Maybe it's because i always have the tendency to put on a mask in front of others, probably that's the cause of my emotional breakdown but most of the time it happened when i'm alone, beside i have a fast recovery from it and put on the mask again.

That's my Life, how fake I am...

Holiday Update!

Of course i'm not just going to talk about Vanilla Latte, here's a little update of how's my holiday. The most fruitful part was i went for a Retreat Church Camp at Chefoo 祈福. I really like the cooling weather there, furthermore i was really happy and surprise to see Nathalie. She came back from New Zealand last weekend but i skipped church for Rock Climbing, so yeah "In your face, Joseph" said Joseph. Well, this camp ain't that fun though, it was the time that you reflect on your life. We do a Timeline for our life since we born, truly i can tell you that my life really terrible with all the sins and unholy things that i have done. But that's not the most important part, the important part is... have you truly repent from all these sins and unholy things you did? have you let go of the bitter part of your life or you still hanging on to it? These are really terrible questions to ask because they make me realize i'm standing at the edge of the cliff and if i'm not changing the life that i'm living now, it's equal to taking the last step down to death. But i'm really grateful that i have two pastors here to guide us through this path. One important thing that i learnt was 'Don't be shy to confess your sins, for it is not an embarrass act but a brave act.' But i think the best part of this camp was when Nat gave me a hug after the last session and she said to me "Jochee, you must always remember that we all love you, alright?" It was really touching to hear something like this, only people who truly loves you will say this to you after they knew the bad part of your life because they believe that you will change. It is really a lovely encouragement for me to turn away from my past.

Chefoo's Guest House

Memories to be taste...

Have you wonder memories have tastes? I do think they have tastes and their taste are more than just sweet and bitter. Now that i'm writing this post at The Coffee Bean, i'm actually tasting the part of my memory when Nollie made me a Vanilla Latte at The Coffee Bean at 1U. I do get to taste back the same taste even though i'm now at a different The Coffee Bean's outlet because the key of this memory is not only the place, the Vanilla Latte is another key to this memory. The moment i tasted the Vanilla Latte here, i realize it's different from the one Nollie made for me because i remember the sweetness of the Vanilla Latte that was filled with Love. So it's kinda obvious that this memory tasted like a Lovely Vanilla Latte.

Sunday...

This was written in my phone yesterday

Today is Sunday, early in the morning I'm alreay in campus, but even with many friends around me, a Sunday without going church makes me feel empty. Such hypocrite i am, knowing that i should be at church  today but i chose to go for club activity instead. Although how exciting the activity could be, my heart won't be there to enjoy it, at this moment, all my heart felt was guilt and longing for the forgiveness from the others. Hours and hours had passed, looking at the time and thinking what's happening in church is all i could do. Checking the phone frequently, hoping that someone realized i'm not there and give me a call or text me. But time passed like a knife stabbed into my heart, every minute that passed makes the knife stab deeper and deeper into my heart when i see there isn't any call or message.

Updates....

Fish & Co.

Last Wednesday, we celebrated Ken Yoong's birthday right after he came back from New Zealand. We went to Fish & Co at 1U, it was suppose to be an surprise party for him but words leeked out, he knew about it. Well, i don't think the surprise really matters, the main reason this party was organised is to make him happy anyway, so it worked anyway.

SS2 Mall

After the dinner, the guys decided to send the girls back 1st then go  Brewball at SS2 Mall. I have no idea how long we played pool there but it was 1:30 a.m when i reached home. 

On the Next day, me and Gavin went to Ken Yoong's house at Puchong. (sorry, don't have photo) Then we went for lunch together at Carbon Brasa @ Bandar Puchong Jaya. After the lunch, we walked around that area and i found out there is a lot of Pubs around there. Then we stopped at SnowFlake for Dessert. On the evening, we all went all the way back to SS2 to play basketball, of course i can only do shots, can't play a match with them. After that we went dinner and we spammed Durian for 3 hours.

~PAIN!.......t Moment~

Last Saturday i tried PAINTBALL not as pain as i expected but still the parts that got hit turn bruised *ouch* Spending time with all these Retards really makes me wanna go back High School...

~Retards invaded Paintball Valley~

~Stupid moment~

There are moments that you felt stupid, is it the moment that you did a mistake? or is it the moment when you don't understand something? Well, i felt stupid for all that moments too but what makes me felt more stupid is when i realized my friends lied to me, i felt really stupid that i actually trusted them & believed what they said but there isn't any right for me to be angry about it... because i was the one that chose to trust them and i know that i'm nothing better than them, for i did all these lies too.. all i could do is feel disappointed...

What a Day.... (Repost)

Walking along the LDP

TCM

1U

Last Monday,  it was a day my head was filled with wrong things, my head was all filled with jealousy, i jealous the life of the others that's much better than mine. I want to have the life of theirs, they just need to ask for what they want, i want to have their aura that can attract others to come to them but.... what's so bad about my life? my life is great too... Why am i thinking of all these nonsenses? Trust in the Lord for He will provides the best for me, this is the life that the Lord has given to a sinner like me, nevertheless, to live in Christ, expect a life that have waves, learn to enjoy when you are suffering, learn to identify what the Lord want to teach us through all these pains. I wish i could understand all these earlier before i had done more wrong doings...

Walking all the way to 1U did gave me a lot of time to think.
Thank God that i met James at 1U, if not i will have to walk back home.

P.S: The previous post was written with a wrong brain, therefore it was corrected...

~a GUILTY day~

*sigh* what have i done yesterday?... why did i keep on doing terrible things to her, first i made her waited for me at the bus station for so long, then i made her worried about her bag at the bowling alley , lastly i fell asleep in Kris' car and leaned on her in front of others... such a terrible friend i am that i continuously do all these terrible things to her, i don't think i should stay any closer to her anymore before things get worse...

~Long Lovely Day~

Yesterday was quite a long day, i was happy that i found a lovely trust worthy friend that i could share my stories with, there were tears and hugs during the moment i shared my story, it's great to have someone to share with, there was a sense of relief. Never the less, her warm lovely shoulder was always ready for her friends but i felt guilty for leaning on her shoulder, making her uncomfortable on the way back. The bus was already so stuffy and yet i'm leaning on her shoulder but she was just so good to me that she didn't want to refuse lending me her shoulder when i asked. Such lovely person she is.

Praise the Lord for friends that was provided, Bless them O Lord, for the lovely hearts they have. AMEN.

~Moment that Never Last~

It has almost been a week me and Charlene taking bus together to campus, it's so lovely to have someone to accompany me throughout all these journey but knowing that this kind of moment never last forever, just hope that there are more times that i can spend with her. At this moment, i know that every side of my heart is telling me something, it is telling me that i'm in love, is one-sided, don't hurt yourself again, don't crush this lovely friendship that you have now, appreciate what you have now, don't ask for more. Truly that i can tell you that i understand my heart well, i don't want my friendship with her to be crushed just like what i did before, thinking back what i had done in the pass, my tears began running down my cheek, i know that it has always been  a wound in  my heart till now.

Praise the Lord for friend that is provided. Amen.

Florence + the Machine - Shake It Out (Lyrics)

Have you let go all your regrets from the past? Are you still being threatened by your past till now? Learn to let them go, for they are just dark past that we had. If we don't move forward from the dark, we will never see the light. Let no devil take opportunity on these regrets to have footholds on us, so shake all these regrets out of us and have Faith in what the Lord had planned for us in the Future.

Let's enjoy Life with No Regrets.

~Warm Little Morning~

It was just another morning that i desired for more sleep but i was asked by Charlene to accompany her to take a earlier bus to campus. Never thought something lovely would happen... i was almost late for the bus, i ran straight down to bus stop when i reached Kelana station but running with a sleepy body really tiring. The moment i reached the bus, all i could say to her was just 'sorry..' and then while she is checking her phone, i doze off... Then she asked 'you okay?' i told her i'm just sleepy and.... i don't know why, i actually just asked her to borrow me her shoulder and she actually gave me her shoulder. The moment i lay my head down to her shoulder, i felt that there weren't any boundaries between me and her, it was a moment that i never thought i could be so close to her, i really wish the journey was endless , i wonder if there is another chance i can lay my head down on her shoulder once again. I won't mind taking the earlier bus just to have another chance to be so close to her.

~LONG weekend~

Last weekend was really a long weekend, it was all about machine. It was stressful to build the machine but i'm glad that i have friends around me, at least i'm not dealing with loneliness and stress at the same time.

Lovely Accompany throughout the weekend

Saturday Morning- After having Dim Sum for breakfast, my dad fetched me and Charlene to campus then we found Kris at the roundabout waiting for us to carry stuff out of his car, then we proceeded to the studio to start our work. 

Testing the machine and trying to think of a way to continue the track was really frustrating, when i'm really stress out then i will just wanna walk out from the studio and take a walk.

Way to release stress- plying tumble tower

 Hours and hours had passed, it's already evening, ideas still remain unknown, there is no point staying there to continue the work when there isn't anything that can be done, so i followed Kris and Charlene since Kris is sending Charlene back to Kelana station.

On my way back home

After waited for Charlene to go off, i took LRT to Bahagia station instead of Paramount station, i just felt that i wanna take a longer walk and giving myself more time to think.

Sunday Afternoon- Right after the service in Church, i asked Ducky to fetch me to Kelana station, then i took a bus to campus and oh no..... my project is locked in the studio we used yesterday... 

Sunday's Bus Stop is so empty

Accidentally cut my thumb 

After taking it out, i continue to work work work.... and time flies flies flies...... it was already night. I was thinking of staying over in campus since i don't have any way to go back home... 

Then suddenly Charlene said she got Jonathan's car, she can drive me back and she want me to accompany her, be her first passenger (sounds so cool)... then i waited for her at the roundabout.... while waiting for her i think i even doze off while standing... After a long ride back home, i'm really worried that she will have problem finding the way out, so i insisted that i want guide her back out. 

My End Product of the Machine before presenting

On my way back home...

*sigh* Today i thought i would have transport back home but sadly my friend told me that he is having meeting until an unknown time and he needed to go Subang after that. So end up i took a bus back along with my Rube Goldberg Machine and the materials. Upon reaching Taman Paramount LRT station, i will need to walk back home from there since my dad is not home yet. On my way back home, i put on my earphones and played 'Bucket' from Carly Rae Jepsen, after this song, my phone randomed a song from the playlist, it is the song above, i don't know why but i realize every time when i walking back home, this song always comes up... such beautiful song yet it is so emotional.

~Elephant Leg!!!~

Every time when i sprained my leg, i always think there is something the Lord want to tell me, is like He is asking me to slow down my steps because moving too fast makes me loss concern about things that happening around me. Or maybe is because i have thoughts of others don't care about me anymore and the Lord is showing me that there are people who cares a lot about me, is just that i have been occupying myself with work too much... That's why the Lord wants me to slow down and feel the Love that others are pouring on me. 

To the people who Love & Care for me, i love & care for you all too. God Bless.

Unwrap the bandage and this is what you will see, the elephant leg due to the swelling... 

What's Church Camp to me??

Church camp is the time people enjoy fellowship between brothers and sisters in Christ, it is also the time to enjoy the days off from worries, everyone will just suppose to be happy but why do i always have to be the one having problems?? Why do i always injured my leg during Church camp?? But through this injury, it told me who are the people that care for me, who are the people who rather keep me accompany than going down the sea to enjoy themselves. It's a joy to know that there are people who cares about you but it's a pain that you realize that your very own friends' had chosen the other side.

To me Church Camp is the time i will break my leg...

To me Church Camp is the time i will be given the truth, the truth in my friendship...

LMBC Church Camp 2012 @ Golden Sands Baptist Assembly

When Tortoise meets a Crocodile

When Tortoise meets a Crocodile.... they just look adorable, don't they??

Now that i posted this photo, i realize i'm so lifeless when i'm doing projects...

Carly Rae Jepsen - Worldly Matters

I just realize that i had been so busy with my own stuff that i didn't realize that some of my friends needed someone to accompany them....

CTS FINAL PROJECT

Making this really gives me a headache, adding effects into it really going to make me go haywire....

Ups & Down on a Friday...

Last Friday I went uni in the morning even though i don't have moral study anymore, the main reason was to find Charlene and get the IDJ assessment sheet from her, it was so nice of her giving me 2 copies of it for free... then i continued with my IDJ while she was having discussion with her CTS group mate.. After a long discussion, they decided the materials they needed and wanted to go Sunway Pyramid to get them, so i tagged along with them to Sunway, maybe i might find something useful...  We walked pass a Digi service centre and Ruth decided to take a photo with the 'Yellow Man'...Then we proceeded to Daiso, I found my lovely transparent marbles there.... oh oh not to forget the bells.... then some people found ear muff and they put them on and ask me to take a photo of them but before they get to pose they were stop by the workers in Daiso, saying that no photograph is allowed ( i think ). Anyway i still managed to snap a shot on them. After Daiso, they went to Jusco and Gaint to get their remaining materials, then we went to a Pet Shop opposite Giant and we discovered Charlene has a 'HIDDEN TALENT' which is talking to rats, interesting huh??

Time passed fast i guessed, it was already lunch time, we went McD for lunch and we met Ah Tzuoo eating alone there, poor guy... i wonder where is Alex...

After Lunch, we went back to Uni and they wanted to cut their woods at the carpentry, before we go to the carpentry, we put all the materials at the tables and chairs at chill ( a cafe near the lecturer theatres, then i........ accidentally drop one of the wood on Charlene's leg..... ouch her skin was torn off... i was so afraid that she will hate me for doing that...  When i see her limping to the carpentry room, i was at my wits end that i really don't know what can i do *sigh*..... When we reached the carpentry room, there was no one there... since that man went for prayer, Ruth suggested Charlene to go to the First Aid room to get treatment for her leg, then Ruth asked me to accompany her there since i'm the one who injured her leg but Charlene refused to let me follow her, she insisted that i should just stay there and wait. In that instant, i really think that i was hated by her....

Time flies again, it was almost time for the March intake Ono performance, Charlene and her group mates almost done cutting their woods, after they are done, me and Charlene accompany Josephine to have her Lunch at Mamak. Charlene was doing her IDJ's mind map there, i'm glad that i was asked to cut the assessment sheet for her since she didn't charge me for the copies.


After the Ono Performance, i wanted to contact Ducky, see if he can fetch me for tonight's meeting at Tans house but it was kinda last minute, so he was not around that area, he asked me to asked Gabriel or Alice but........ my phone ran out of battery.... then i charge a little in one of the empty LT but i have to follow Wye Lun back since i want him to drop me at Sunway.... On our way to car pack we saw Rozan and he asked us to join them for Frisby, i wanted to play for a while only but time just passes really fast without being realise, it was already 7.30 when we check the watch. Then Wye Lun dropped me off at Sunway, I waited for the bus for more than half an hour, it was already 8.03 when the bus arrived, I'm so screwed, i'm suppose to be there at 8.30 and i don't even have my transport arranged yet..... I tried turn on my phone again, it showed me notification of battery low, so i dare not call, i texted Gabriel and asked if he is still at home... then i drop off at Western Digital which is very near Gabriel's house... i was so happy to receive from Gabriel that he says he is still at home but when i asked him 'are you going for the meeting?', he told me he wasn't feeling well. After seeing that text, my feet that were walking towards his house literally stop... i'm so lost at that moment, i don't know i could do, i don't know where can i go.....
I checked my watch.... it was already 8.40..... Everyone is already there, there is no one that can fetch me anymore, so i started moving my feet again walking towards home... walking walking walking..... my hearts was struggling with questions.... Why no one calls me when i'm missing? Does anyone remember about me? I felt so down, i don't feel like walking anymore, i found a bus stop and i sat there continue staring at my phone waiting for someone to call me and care about me, i waited until my phone ran out of its battery again, i'm struggling with all the questions again..... then i broke down in tears..... i wished that MIkey didn't went back to Canada, i wished that she will be here with me, hugging me when i'm crying.....

Orange eraser...

It was during last Thursday English Lesson, me and Wye Lun was so bored, so we decided to play with Kris stuff just to piss him off... hoho.... it was all started with this orange eraser..... Do watch the video below....

~Good Afternoon!~

Just another boring and sleepy afternoon waiting for Malaysian Study to start, last night IDJ 4 was killing my brain cells by making me stay up the whole night to finish it but i failed to finish it anyway but i never thought the deadline will be postponed. Well, at least just now Miss D took a look at my IDJ and she said she like it, it was fine. Hearing that really make it worth staying up whole night to do it.

Hmmm.. don't know why.... today i'm not grumpy and i'm able to sleep anywhere, i slept in English Class when Miss Lojana was playing my group's oral presentation video...hohoho...... then i slept at Temptation (is a restaurant) after i finished my meal.... even though i'm not sleepy anymore, still my heart felt uncomfortable..... but it wasn't as bad as the previous day.

~God's Help?~

Yesterday when i was taking the bas from Sunway, i did't have small change for the bus fare, so the driver asked me to get small change or else no change for my 10 ringgit, so i ran down from the bus and asked the lady that sells drinks in front of the bus stop but she seems to be ignoring me by making herself busy with other customers. At that moment, i felt so down, i don't want to miss the bus but i got no small change, what can i do? Suddenly, i saw a girl from the bus waving at me, so i walked to her and she offer me small change for the 10 ringgit. Do you think God had sent her to give me the small change? 

God bless the girl for her kindness.

~Dream House?!~

Does everyone have a Dream House?? How fancy can your Dream House be??? I had never thought of my own Dream House... current IDJ really frying my brain badly eh...  I guess i need to 'Build Castles in the clouds'

~Grumpy Day~

I guess not enough sleep really affect my mood, my heart doesn't pumps at a correct beat, is like slower than usual, felt really uncomfortable and ya that's the reason why i feel so grumpy today... how can i fix this problem now, supposingly i need sleep to fix this but i can't sleep in this uncomfortable condition...

~GOOD MORNING!!!~

The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

When Darkness turns to light.... it ends tonight......

OMG.... it's already morning...... GOOD MORNING HUMAN!!!! today i shall be zombie.....thanks to journal....

~Another Long Night~

AH........Hungry....... Another Night that i stayed up to talk to my brother and do my journal at the same time.

Oh Man, Maggie Double not filling eh....

~Sore Leg~

Ouch! My legs feel so sore now, i thought i got the injury from yesterday's SAC Training, others seems to be fine.... so assume it is from basketball then, for these few days, stairs will be my enemies

~Tired & Sleepy AGN~

AH!!!!!! another day without sleeping and yet still using the iMac at Mac Lab, i wonder when i will be able to change habit of sleeping, i had been sleeping a lot on the other days and no sleep for a day before due date... such a lifestyle.

~Baldy Day~

Two days ago, i went to the barber to shave bald. Today when i stepped in the classroom, my friends stare at me and started laughing, some other friends came in later walked pass me and rub my head for fun and there were others that asked me why shave bald?
WHY? what's so bad about bald? Is so cooling!!

~OLD Sunday~

Old Sunday? Why OLD?

Because most of the Sundays after i became a Christian, i will have the urge to go Church but not for yesterday.

Yesterday i went back Hometown, Rasa by KTM to take photos of rural places, seeing the changes that had been done in my Hometown, i realized it had been a long time i didn't follow my parents back there on Sunday.

Surprisingly something weird happened yesterday, my dad actually offered me a ride straight to my Church when i asked him to fetch me to LRT station, could that actually be the Lord asking me to go Church through my dad? I guess i had once again rejected the Lord...

~Stumbling Leg~

Had i been running too much???? Running in a Basketball game???? No... what i'm running from was just the truth that had been shown to me, the truth that i don't want to accept... what's so hard to face the truth?? why can't i do it??

I guees i'm worst than Thomas, who seen the truth that was shown by the Lord and believe in Him. I was shown the truth but i refuse to believe what was shown.. no one wish to be a Thomas in their life as the Lord don't desire a person like Thomas but i rather be a Thomas than being a non-believer.

My legs stumble when i'm affraid to face the truth, i'm affraid i will lose track of the Lord's footstep because i refuse to accept the truth...

~Laziness~

What had happened to me??? Why am i feeling lazy all the time??? Why??? Now that i'm worrying about the due dates, it motivates me to do my work, Thanks Due Dates. Appreciate your presence.

The All-American Rejects - Swing, Swing

Had my heart really let go my pass?? Am i really carrying on?? Can you help me find a way to carry on???

Lifehouse - You And Me

Love really do blind people, people who's in Love never realize how much time that was wasted because they think it's worth it, only until this Love doesn't work anymore they only able to realize.

~Life~

Life is something colorful, different kind of situation occurs randomly in a person's life, today is present, present is something that give you a surprise, you will never know what will turn up for every second of your life, just in a second, a person can experience a great change in mood, a joyful person can turn sober instantly when the color of life that were poured on that person is dull. How's your life? My life is interesting, when i don't have a computer to use, i have plenty of ideas what i can do if i'm using one, now that i'm using one, i just like having amnesia, forget about every plan i have from the pass (that's why i'm writing this). Life is really full of surprise, i never thought i will be typing this post with Charlene's Laptop tho, never thought her laptop will be staying over with me for a night, such a surprise eh... (syok sendiri)

Well the truth is my life had never been good, why is there always stress? why is there people who judge? isn't this my life? why can't i control the outcome of my life?

Because i don't own this life, it never belongs to me, it belongs to God, my life have ended the moment i sinned, wages of sin is death, it's all because our dearest Lord had died on cross as a sinner and washed our sins with his blood. Always give thanks to the Lord for everything that happens in our life, no matter is bitter or sweet because you never get to experience them if the Lord didn't give us this precious life.

~Photoshop!~

Add on Old Paper Effect!!!

Oh yeah my First ever edit on photo using photoshop!!!

~Buckets....~

This morning i went back to Rumah Hope, the orphanage that me and my friends visited yesterday because we left the BUCKETS there, i knew that if i were to ask back the bucket one of them will definitely says they thought we donated the buckets to them and i'm right! after i got the buckets, i drop the two red one back at my house and carry the other two back to campus to return them back to Deidre and Adrain, the thing i don't understand is why is everyone stare at me for a moments when i walk around with two buckets??

~Random Updates~

Current condition is dying..... i didn't sleep since yesterday night until now, other updates will be currently  i only received one present which is a lollipop from Charlene, that's actually better than nothing, good that she bought the correct flavor that i like , there is another one coming from Jessica but don't know when i will get it since i don't know when will i meet her. Now i'm waiting for my Malaysian Studies class to start, an hour more to go, i think i should go sleep zzZ

Fall Out Boy - I Don't Care

HAha how i wish i can don't care about things that's bothering me (IMPOSSIBLE~)

P.S: Fall Out Boy still da Best!! Love them!

~Movies~

I was having a week of break so i decide to spam movie by myself, yeah because no one is free, so i watched John Carter on my Birthday, One for the Money & Hunger Games on Thursday, total 3 movie, was satisfy with the story line for these 3 movie but wasn't satisfy with the action for Hunger games, it was messy during the fight and too little action, well all this just my personal opinion, you might have a different point of view from mine. But what i can say now is I REGRETTED, because i now i need to deal with my sketches that needs to be summit this coming Monday with not enough time, regret regret regret......

~CRaazy Moments!!!~

Wow, i haven't been blogging for such a long time, now that i realize i have plenty of things to update. Well, it was kinda busy for last week, before my break, On the 23rd of March, we have ICI project brief to summit and Onomatopoeia presentation to prepare. Everything went fine, after the presentation, me and few of my friends went to Wong Kok to have Lunch/Tea, it was almost my birthday (26th of March) so we got the free drink from the restaurant, it was a huge serving for the drink, so we didn't manage to finish it. Since this is a very late update, must well jump a little bit, to be honest, i was kinda disappointed with this year birthday, what i can say is because is a different year, i'm free but my friend wasn't free to celebrate with me, spending birthday alone in a shopping complex was a really bad choice, i was trying to treat myself with a movie but watching movie alone reminded me another disappointed experience that i had. Yeah, so this year celebration for my birthday that seems to be the MOST proper one goes to the most random one, which is the one after the presentation, so i want to thank Charlene, Ruth, Run Sen, Wye Lun, Conie & Adrian for hanging around with me, oh oh not to forget the people from another table, they sang birthday song for me, well they are actually celebrating Jia Xin's birthday which is one day before mine, they shared part of the cake with us too, Thanks Yeah. The one comes after this will be having dinner with my family at Hokaido Sushi at 1U lower ground floor, hoho i tried not to overspend my mom's pocket, it was a success, we only spend below 150 ringgit for 4 person in a SUSHI RESTAURANT and everyone of us was satisfy, can you believe that? anyway Thanks mom for this Tasty Dinner~ Up Next will be with my basketball mates, it was a short one we have at KAYU, yeah it was on the Tuesday night, we wanted to play basketball but it rained, so we chose to play Munchkin, is a card RPG game!!!! pretty interesting huh, it was the first time i'm playing this game and is AWESOME but one set cost 200 over ringgit and Declan bought it himself and let us play without paying for it, how can someone be so generous, that must be Declan and he paid for our food and drinks for that day, isn't he too generous?? Oh well thanks to Declan, Gavin, Jason, Marn Keon and Danush for teaching me how to play Munchkin and the time they spent with me. Once again i wanna thanks everyone that wished me with they HEART. Thank you so Much, Love you all.

~SPM result~

4A
3B
2C

so nice right?
This is a disappointment to my mom.

The All American Rejects performing "I For You" [New Song] On Live With ...

~Thumbs up!~

~FEAR?~

*sigh* should i or shouldn't i do the collage about FEAR, even myself can't handle this FEAR *sigh*

~Great Start?~

Fuji Apple! the juice i had after gyming

I'm currently in the Mac Lab updating this blog, well after going gym & breakfast, the only thing i thought of is hanging around in the library until the class start. Something great for today is i don't feel sleepy like yesterday, not so much sneezing too. Long day waiting for me ahead with classes, discussions & Sky Adventure Club, you can do it Joseph, do it with the Jochee's power. XD

~A Song that triggers Memory~

This song reminds me of Jessica, one of my secondary friend, not that she played this song in front of me but just that i remember her favorite band is Neon Trees.
We used to hang out together after school at the front gate while waiting for her transporter, quite a close friend for that time but now not anymore....

~Laziness in Action!!!~

*YAWN* i'm so sleepy now but i need to finish up my essay today, feel so lazy to do it, I wanna go back home and sleep

~Sick & Tired Day~

*Achoo.....* Oh man, i had been sneezing since this morning, got the feeling that i'm getting sick soon Probably is my own fault for sleeping late, my bad habit. *Achooooo.......* feel like sleeping ...... but got class to attend now..... *SIGH*

~Sunday JOY~

It was a Joy to me that Charlene agreed to follow me to Church last Sunday, i really hope she enjoyed the service and consider continue coming to this church. Well.... i did found out something interesting today, Charlene likes Music a lot, she admires people who are talented in musical instrument....

~Joy in the midst of Busy Week~

BUS Ticket

Oh my it had been 6 long days that i didn't touch the blog, well last week was kinda busy and yet i still enjoyed part of it, the part that i enjoyed was last Thursday SAC, not during the meeting but after the meeting, i went dinner with Jasmine and Charlene, we had dinner at Asian Cafe in front of Taylor's College, all of us had Fried rice for dinner because the Mixed Rice stall close. The portion of the food was more than i expected, it was a plate-full of rice that i needed to stuff my tummy to the MAX. After the dinner, Jasmine left us half-way when we walking to the bus stop, so just left me and her. i had quite a Good Time talking to her while waiting for the bus.

My Promise

I will build a sand castle at Port Dickson this coming Church Camp!!

That's my Pormise to Mikey & Nolie 

P.S. my current favourite song~

End of Zombie Moment??

My zombie Moment will probably end tonight, not suppose to be yesterday but i fell asleep, end up submitting my assignment with some TOTAL bullshit
Oh well hopefully tonight will be able to dump in all my ideas for IDJ and put an end for this week Zombie Moment.

I'm suppose to pretend to be one famous & professional guitarist for my IDJ, do you think i look like one??

~ Zombie Time!!! ~

OMG! is 5.05 and i'm still awake!!! WHY? i need to finish my sketch journal, the title is timeline, i drew timeline about 'TRAIN', at last is done. Should i sleep???

~Something that Made my Day ♥ ~

Receipt from Pizza Milanos

 Such a random day that i made a random decision to ask Charlene out for a Lunch at 1U, i never thought she will agree to come out and yeah she did, she asked to meet up at MPH, she thought MPH sells stationary like POPULAR hoho, well MPH only sells books only, so she asked me to take her to POPULAR. On the way to POPULAR, she asked if i know any place in 1U that can print photos, so took her to FOTOKEM then waited her to print her photos for IDJ. After that we continue to head on to POPULAR again, when we reached there she asked me to go buy my stuff and she will go get her stuff, after buying what we want, she asked where to have lunch, hmmm i never really thought of a restaurant to go, so i looked around and AHA i found PIZZA MILANOS, well the interior design looks really classy, she thought it will be expensive, so we checked out the menu and OH YEAH is cheaper than what we thought, so we went in without any second thought. She ordered a Fettucine Carbonara ( too cheesy), i ordered a Large Chicken Supreme Pizza & we ordered 2 glass of Ice Lemon Tea. While waiting for the food, we had a Friendly Chat, when the food comes, we eat and chat at the same time (making full use of the time because she got to go after the lunch), we also had some of each others' food. After the lunch, i guided her to the Taxi Stand at Old Wing and she went off with her friends to church. Even though it was just an hour & 30 minutes with Charlene, it still made my day ♥

~Awkward Moment~

What can i say when i meet back my old classmate which i don't even recognize her, she came into the mac room but we are not able to recognize each other, then when we realized both of us are in the same place....... AWKWARD!!!

P.S she is prettier than i thought 

~Fun? Tiring? Fun & Tiring day~

It was a tiring day yesterday, i randomly joined treasure hunt organized by the Sky Adventure Club, it was a flying experience, when we are asked to go up and down the campus, it was fun and tiring, no regret joining this but hopefully i'm able to get to the interview session and of course get through that session too. After the treasure hunt, Wye Lun fetched me & Charlene to Sunway Pyramid bus stop, praise the Lord that the bus came just 2 minutes after we arrived, then we took the bus together back to Kelana LRT station, it was 8.30 when we reached the stop, then Charlene waited for her aunt to fetch her at the 7-eleven nearby and i went on the LRT back to Paramount station.

~Waiting Moment~

Once again i'm in the same place i created this blog but using a different mac, i'm kinda bored now, don't know what can i do..... how good if i have an earplug now, then i will plug it in and enjoy music again, my ears are not satisfied from the midnight music yet

Midnight & Music

Oh no... why am i still awake?? i suppose to in the bed now... this is all because i slept in the afternoon, since i can't sleep, let's enjoy the night with music, i'm listening to All American Rejects, Boys like Girls & Fall Out Boys songs, i have no idea how long i did't listen to their songs, such a relaxing moments.

Lazy = Tired??

Does lazy equals to tired? to me, i will say YES because i'm lazy to do my sketches earlier, so i end up rushing all the sketches at once, even my back is aching for sitting too long. Other than that i finished the sketches at 3a.m, this caused me have not enough sleep and caused me to be tired through out the day. Well, this is the consequences for being lazy, no one to be blame but myself & the WRONG decision i made.

a WRONG day

 Today is Saturday, i suppose to be at church meeting up with my pastor but laziness has turned me down to do anything today, just feel like spending time in John's house, relaxing for another day but this is definitely a WRONG decision. I found out that i actually have plenty of course works are not done and i should have went to church to talk to my pastor about problems that cause me to get further away from the Lord. ( i guess this is one of them)

5C Reunion SPICY

~Organizer~

~Couple~

~Leng Zai~

 After the site trip at P.J. Trade Center, i went for a dinner at Ming Tien (food court at Taman Megah), it was a small little reunion with my secondary school friends, John, Ben, Yen Keat, Nigel, Felix, Shu Ting & Bassy. It was a good time for fellowship between us but the portion for the food was lesser than last time or maybe i started to eat more XP, but still the worst thing for the dinner was the sausages, yes the SPICY one, that tiny little sausage that i underestimated was deadly to my lips with a small wound and my throat but there are people who can endure it like Ben & Nigel, crazy people. After the dinner we went to John's house to chill out. Me & Nigel stay overnight at his house and i'm updating my blog now XP

Site Trip: P.J. Trade Center

~My Buddies in FNBE~

Yesterday i had a great time in uni, early in the morning was Moral Education, then we were asked to group ourselves in a group of 10 and the task given was to sing a song together, we chose to sing 'BA BA Black Sheep', it's a simple song unlike the others that sang songs that are nicer and more meaningful but i personally think that my group did better than what i expected, i think........... oh well never mind, move on to the afternoon, the whole FNBE class went to P.J Trade Center, i never thought it would be so interesting that i get to partially step in the air. Yeah, it was 16th floor the height i was standing, i can barely believe that a person that has problem crossing the fly-over bridge like me actually ignore the fear due to the excitement that i have, oh it was indeed a memorable and unbelievable experience for me.

16th floor @ P.J. Trade Center

~New new life~

Freshy freshy new life in a new study environment...
All i wish is to forget about my pass that crushed my heart...
Never want to fall in love to anyone that causes blindness anymore.....
May the sweet moments i had with her be vanish along with the bitter memories.....
Never want to remember anything about it anymore....

Can i really forget about her?
Time has the answer....

Hullo!!!

I'm not exactly new to blog nor new to blogging, never thought of blogging much in secondary due to pack schedule but now that i'm in Pre-U, doing Foundation, life is more flexible than people who are in secondary (unless they are carefree) or people who are in A-LEVEL (most of my friends), so i have plenty of free time before my class starts, so i decided to start back blogging.

Nice to meet you! (if anyone were to read this)

P.S.: Posted this just to check the fonts